Deprived
My eyes are tired and I just woke up
Wearied by another lonely night,
together with my heart.
Another night without you.
Awake and falling apart
I come undone with the tossing covers
as they untuck me from my heart.
And I'm wearied by another lonely night,
another buried night,
sulking over waking up.
Lacking sleep and missing you;
deprived of kissing you.
Missing sleep and lacking you;
and sulking over waking up.
posted by Deirdre on 2:57 PM
Unearthly
some like
everything perfect, and
in its place
in its place
inner space
in its place, and
everything perfect
I am not quite there
doubt I'll ever be
yet You remain much more than me
I am sin
I am unearthly
you are an alien influence
unearth me
C Cmaj7
G5 G/F E E7 (Lead: Ab-A-B-A-Ab) E C Cmaj7
posted by Deirdre on 11:09 PM
thirteen years and counting
hello my horomonal time bomb
so what makes you tick
who made you sovereign for me now
burning me with the whick
when I said hello at thirteen
I started counting back
the word go went up in signs of green lit lights around me
and now I'm no longer me
even when I have to be
there goes another part of me
there goes my will, virginity
where'd I go wrong
there's so much so wrong with me
we lose ourselves in finding meaning in our pants
and find ourselves losing out on life's best years
and wonder why or where we went wrong
somewhere back at puberty when we felt wrong
everything in us cried out right
we should have fought back
then again, we should fight back today
and save all that we have not given away
to pick ourselves back off of shelves and wear innocence
I am not a slave anymore
I'm no longer me only when I need to be
Jesus freed me, He freed me
He freed you, He freed me
G F
G F G/Ab
Em Em/F# G F
This song is not about me, so much as it is about my generation.
posted by Deirdre on 5:54 PM
to be a boy again
guys won't admit that they are fragile, too
or that they like being held the way I do
I know the rules say I must dominate you
but now the secret's out
and I want you to
I want to feel your arms around me
to be a boy again
cause I missed out on having a daddy
now I'm older and he's simply dad to me
and I regret not enforcing his knee
a place to sit and rest my head
in his arms
that are ever-bigger than me
and no matter how tall I am
he's always bigger
and how I feel the daddy in me
wishing I was his son again
and not some man
I fit in his genes
but they're always bigger than me
my only memory fading now
is the regret
cause what I'm left with makes me fret
only for being inept
to have a kid of my own
I've never wept
so hard
and missed you more
and now you're twice as far away from daddy
dad, you're a grandpa and that's brought you back
and I see the knee my children love to sit on
and the arms that held me tight
holding them
oh, what a sight
and my wife
holding me like I need
being ever so fragile, indeed
posted by Deirdre on 8:14 PM
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